September 2011
13 posts
“We cast away priceless time in dreams, born of imagination, fed upon illusion, and put to death by reality.”
—
Judy Garland
like she knew already knew her end
(via n0rthernl1ghts)
now is the time for faith and determination.
“Is evil something you are? Or is it something you do? My pain is constant and sharp and I do not hope for a better world for anyone. In fact I want my pain to be inflicted on others. I want no one to escape. But even after admitting this- and I have, countless times, in just about every act I’ve committed- and coming face-to-face with these truths, there is no catharsis. I gain no deeper knowledge about myself, no new understanding can be extracted from my telling. There has been no reason for me to tell you any of this. This confession has meant nothing…”
—American Psycho, Bret Easton Ellis (via n0rthernl1ghts)
it’s so hard to find the silver lining right now. there’s nothing to surround myself with but everything that’s making this so hard to begin with. even when i get away, it follows me. i don’t want to talk about it out loud.
i’m so jealous. i wonder when things will finally work in my favour. i keep telling myself that it’s going to happen, that it must happen soon because how could it not? but it never happens. it actually just gets worse. how many times must i get up after being constantly knocked down? i’ve never wanted to quit something more than i do right now. i hate quitting. i wish people would feel sorry for me, but i know they won’t and i know i don’t deserve the sympathy.
i’m just waiting to get over this. i wish it was already over. i don’t know how i’m going to make it through to april… i really don’t.
